The Epic Saga of Locating a Healthcare Provider

After working at the Boy Scouts of America for about 5 weeks, I'm beginning to realize how much I love spending time with the boys at the different schools and the other leaders.  I can tell that the drive to Denver every week is taking it's toll on me (and my car), but I think that this program is going to really change my life. I spend most of my time during the program organizing and keeping the boys in line, but I can't get down on the floor anymore now that I'm 8 months pregnant. 

Speaking of being 8 months pregnant, I now know what a sardine can must feel like! Our baby girl is getting to be so long that I have serious pain in my upper abdomen where her foot sits. It's starting to get to the point that it wakes me up in the middle of the night!  Fortunately we're in the home stretch and she will be here before we know it! (Now I'm about to rant - feel free to close your browser now)

After much debate I have also decided to look at another hospital and doctors office in the area.  The long saga of this doctors office is starting to become ridiculous. Prior to them adding me as a patient they needed my medical records, but their fax machine was broken.  Instead of letting me know what the situation was, contacting my doctor, or making any sort of arrangements to have the paperwork mailed to them, they instead chose to just ignore the problem.  I became so frustrated on the phone with them that I broke out in tears and they finally made an appointment for me.  I should have known better right then and there.  I should have found another doctor immediately, but instead I gave the office a lot of leeway and decided to continue making appointments at this office.   Unfortunately they lady who schedules the appointments doesn't know how to operate the program properly, they double book the doctors and the front of house staff is just generally rude. 

All of this being said, I had decided that I was just going to stick it out until our daughter was born, until yesterday.  I had received a phone call last week that said I needed to reschedule my appointment because a meeting had been scheduled during my appointment time.  When I returned the call I was put on hold for 15 minutes and upon hanging up the phone I got pulled over because I was "texting and driving"  - I didn't receive a ticket, but it didn't help my frustration with the doctors office, but I let it slide.  Yesterday I received another call that a future appointment I had interfered with a surgery - and that's when it hit me.  I do not HAVE to go to this doctor's office.  

In Indianapolis I never had a problem scheduling appointments, my doctor and the office staff were always kind, caring, friendly, and if she was not going to be available they didn't cancel my appointment entirely.  They would call to ask if it would be okay if I were to see another doctor instead - this only happened once mind you.  Overall I am very disappointed in the care that I have received here so far, but at least baby Brack is healthy! 

This weekend consists of a doctors appointment at the terrible location on Friday, a birthplace tour at the other hospital on Saturday, and deciding if I want to transfer doctors.  Please pray that we make the best decision for our family. 

Our Newest Adventures

I have never been one to blog or journal much.  As anyone can tell by the frequency that I do choose to blog, but I think it is important to start some sort of journal/blog to document how our lives are changing.

Over the past three years of marriage, both Jonathon and I have gone through a lot of trials and tribulations.  I am so thankful that with God's help we have chosen to stick together through the thick and the thin.  Of course there are days that are harder than others, but no one said that marriage is easy.  If you were told that, someone lied to you.  Everyday is a new adventure that God intends for us to take.  Our current adventures include moving across the country away from family, living in a new state (that has new laws, rules, and expectations), owning a new home, making new friends, finding a new church home, and starting a family. All while I continue to try to complete my degree by May.  This accumulation of things in our lives could be very overwhelming if we let it be, but I know that God has a plan for us.

Jonathon and I are so excited to bring our baby girl into the world.  It is simply amazing to be 32 weeks into this pregnancy.  I can already tell that this unborn child has a huge personality - could anyone really expect less with Jonathon and me as her parents?  What is truly amazing is that she responds to us even though she is still in my womb.  It's as if she knows when Jonathon gets home - she wiggles and kicks when she hears his voice or when he touches my tummy.  How simply amazing is it to know that she recognizes our voices already.   I will also say that baby hiccups really are the oddest sensation I have ever experienced.  I tend to feel bad for her when she experiences them multiple times during the day - she gets frustrated and kicks really hard when they start bugging her.   When I think about giving birth to her, I don't imagine how painful it will be, instead I tend to think about how lonely I will be after she's here and not in my womb anymore. The little gift that God has given us will no longer be protected in me and instead I will have to protect her from the world around us. It's a little unnerving to think that we really only have 8 weeks until she arrives (if she doesn't come early.)  I feel so unprepared for her arrival, but I know that everything will be okay because the Lord is looking out for us.

I am so thankful for all that the Lord has provided us with so far, and I look forward to the new adventures that he has in store for us.  Today I have had the hymn Great is Thy faithfulness replaying over and over in my head.  It truly is amazing just how Great our Lord's faithfulness truly is.

"Great is Thy faithfulness!Morning by morning new mercies I seeAll I have needed Thy hand hath providedGreat is Thy faithfulness, Lord unto me!"

Wishing and hoping..

Today I'm feeling a bit discouraged. Have you ever hoped for something for weeks, so much that you honestly believe that your dream has come true? Today I just realized the thing that I wanted was further off than anticipated.

After looking for words of encouragement I found them in God's word.. "And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus." - Phil 4:19
It always amazes me how selfish I am.  How I want what I want and I want it right now!  I choose to blindly ignore what God wants for me and go about finding the best way to GET what I want.

So today I will go about obey the plan that the Lord has set out for me!

starting a new job..

Just packed my lunch for my first day at my new job..  This is a new chapter in my life, starting a full time job in an office is completely different that working in a factory or a retailer.  This isn't Best Buy.  I really think I grew comfortable, and stopped trying to grow.  So for tonight I'm not going to worry about what my new job will unearth for me, but just to take it day by day.

 I've also been sort of slacking on the chores this weekend, because we were out of town yesterday I feel behind.  I ran the dishwasher only to find out that the amazing gel pack that I had purchased doesn't work if they get wet in advance.. So now I'm rerunning the dishwasher only to have to clean the dishes in the sink afterward.. ::sigh::

I've also been dealing with the lovely United States Postal Service to change Jonathon's address.. Unfortunately, this is the third time they've screwed up.  First they said they didn't get Jonathon's change of address, but to give them a certain number of days and call back if they really hadn't received it..  So I called them again to have the address changed only to find out that they would have to charge me another dollar to do it over again; and that I would have to call another number to get my dollar returned.. Well after all of that, Jonathon and I stopped by his parents house to drop off Hacienda salsa only to see Jonathon's mail on the table.. Our mail that had our NEW address on it was now being forwarded to our OLD address.. Seriously!?  Of course Monday is some dumb holiday that only effects banks and postal workers so I won't be able to take care of that on Monday.

The two things that I need to get done on Monday are will ironically the bank and the USPS.  ::sigh::

It's just another day in the life..

Memorial Day weekend

Drove to Logansport Indiana for Memorial day weekend with my family.  I love spending time with my Dad, Step Mom and my twin brothers Zach and Alex.  Of course my loving hubby (who put up the tent, created fire and drove me to the restroom multiple times) came along with me!

We had a wonderful time in the mud!  It always seems like food tastes better when it's cooked on a fire.  Or when someone else cooks it o.O
It did rain most of the time while we were there, but we escaped it on Saturday when we drove into "town" to see a movie at the one and only theater that only shows movies after 7:30 on the weekends!
We also went swimming in the (very cold) rock quarry. We didn't get to see any spoonbill sturgeons in person, but we know they were there!

Today Jonathon and I went to the pet store to get fish to fill my new tank. again. We purchased a very small dwarf puffer. Who seems to be able to eat 3x his weight in blood worms.  We also purchased a few other types of fish.  We'll see how long they survive with the puffer.. should be good fun.

Never say Never..

Growing up in northern Indiana I had this expectation of my future life.  Like moving out of Indiana and never looking back.  Don't even question me about moving back to the place where I grew up because I would have adamantly told you it would never happen!

 The thing about small town life is that it moves by slowly.  You don't feel it when you're there in the moment, but when you move away and return you notice it all around you.

I went back to my hometown last weekend to puppy sit my dog Eli and to watch my niece go through the process of her first Holy Communion.  I left Indianapolis at 8 or 9 in the morning because I had an appointment for Eli to get groomed at 1pm.  Knowing how traffic is I was in a hurry to get out of town.  After driving for awhile I consulted the GPS on my phone to determine if 31 was really the fastest way to Goshen, Indiana.  Because if you've ever had the pleasure of driving on 31 you know how incredibly tedious it is.  Not only is the speed limit 55mph most of the way you also have the pleasure of driving all the way into South Bend and then heading east to get to the lovely land of Goshen. 

After consulting the GPS i discovered that I had another option.  I could take another highway and drive through another part of the state.  Little did I know (having never heard of these "highways" that I was going to be taking that this took me through the most rural parts of Indiana.. in my opinion. 

I quickly realized that there was no rush. I had no reason to be in such a hurry.  I assume that it was the beautiful green grass and the farms that surrounded me on these back country road that calmed me down from the inside out. It may have even been that there was hardly any traffic on the back road I took, but  I hadn't even realized how tense I was inside until I made the trek home.

Anyway the point of this was to say that I want to move back to the country where life moves slowly.  Where I grew up and where my family calls home.  When Jonathon and I lived in Florida I wanted to be back in Indiana so badly that it didn't matter where we lived.  I just had to be back in a state that was familiar to me.  A state where the average age of the population isn't 65.  A state that has different seasons that I'm familiar with.  Now that we're back in the state I'd been begging for for months I'm ready to go back to the Bend..

Now I will not say that it will not happen, because you can never say never because you just never know where in life God is going to take you, but I will say that is most likely will never happen which makes me very sad.  It's good to know that it's only 3 hours away whenever I'm feeling the need to run home to my mom :)